Lavender Sparkles

Hello

As you might have noticed, this page has different colours to that of Stella's.
You may chalk it up to different colour preferences, if you were expecting a reason behind it.
The navigation bar's colours remain as-is for consistency reasons.

My name is Lavender Sparkles, as you can tell from the title of this page.
I am not one for introductions, nor one for much talking, but I may try either way.
I am a mouse, and I used to be a bat—largely in defiance of the cutesy aesthetics of Stella's.
I tend to prefer speaking formally, and I find myself drawing comfort from phrases, 'fancy' vocabulary, and communicating in a plain-yet-precise manner.

Welcome to my corner of this website.
Don't overstay your welcome, though, and stay strong out there.

As you mature, your audience would to the same.

Who are you?

I'm Lavender, I live with Stella and a few others in the same head.
If you don't know what that means, this page is not for you. Go back to Stella's.

Alright? Good, all clear.
I'm a trans woman. I use she/they pronouns. I'm also a mouse in the therian sense.
I am chronologically older than everyone here. I am believed to be the first individual here. I retain most of our earliest memories. I contain most of our traumas.
Back when Stella decided it was a mouse, it asked me what I am. I said to it: "I don't know what I am but I am everything you're not, and I guess a bat is quite different from what you are. You're cutesy and charming and annoying, and I'm harsh, cold-blooded, and impatient."
And thus, I decided then-and-there that I was a bat.
I am apparently not a bat. I suppose I am embarrassed by this.
After some grueling identity questioning, I've come to the conclusion that I'm a mouse.

Don't expect me to squeak, though.

And, to speak of trauma...
I am deeply traumatised. I am not just incapable of communicating in a manner soft and kind, I am unwilling to.
We may still be good friends, but please bear in mind that I'm not going to change the way I talk. I do, however, maintain the necessary amount of diligence to respect other people, as I expect from them too.
I also have anger issues, of the shouting kind. I am working on this.

I've been bullied a lot at school and online, so please don't come to me about your life tips. I do not need them, I do not seek them, I do not want them.
I've been forced to grow up a lot in life. Learned to never waste a thing when I was 12, dropped out of highschool at 16, got a job at 18 years old, that type of stuff.

I would not call myself 'broken', but I am deeply troubled by these struggles in my past and my present, so please be patient with me. Kay?
Kay.

What do you do?

In my free time, I like to draw. I also like playing videogames that challenge my mechanics, like Dead Cells or Hollow Knight.
I've yet to try Dark Souls :)
I also like being strategic. I like card games and board games, though I rarely get to play them.
I really like Noita as well.

Outside of entertainment, I enjoy doing chores, and I really like cooking. Especially stir-fry.
I also tend to be the "chore-doer" of the system... And I also tend to be the "serious" guy.
Oh, and, we work in software.

In the past, I used to really enjoy translating songs from English to Mandarin, particularly My Little Pony fan songs.
I've stopped doing it though, as it is a relatively niche field of work for far too much effort.
I have complicated thoughts for the pony fandom... Not the topic for this page, though.

Oh, and, I'd like to try doing some handiwork, though I have no knowledge of resources and no prior experience, and no space for the more complicated or heavy-duty stuff.

Where can I talk to you?

My Email address is lavender at mouse dot lgbt.

My Discord is thorny.lav

Or, you could just talk to Stella's account instead. Just be sure to say you're seeking to message me in specific.